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Umm...yeaahhhhh.... Aug. 16th, 2004 @ 10:41 am


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Aug. 16th, 2004 @ 09:43 am

I hate that I can't draw anymore. Authors get "writers-block," and artists, too, get "painting-block" or whatever you'd like to call it. What happened to the days where I could stand in front of my easel with a million ideas racing through my mind....it was so easy. Now I sit there, totally blank, trying too hard to be creative and fresh.  Right now I am looking at my bright red shelves of Art books, paints, pastels, conte crayons, Prismacolor pens and colored pencils, drawing pads, paintbrushes soaking in stale water, watercolors and portfolios overflowing with artwork from my younger days.  John was sweet enough to build this whole half of the guest room dedicated to my Art, but it has sat cold and untouched for so long.

I don't know what to do. Am I still even an Artist anymore? I haven't seriously drawn or painted for years. Has that part of me died completely? I have come to the conclusion that my most fruitful period of my artwork was when I was totally depressed -- the classic tortured artist. Now I am grown, and happy and secure...and suddenly without inspiration. What will it take to start drawing again? A total emotional upheaval in my life? Another bout of mind-numbing depression? Getting totally ripped? A swift kick in the head? I don't know, but I need to find out.

Current Mood: determineddetermined
Current Music: See You Soon - Coldplay

WTF! Aug. 2nd, 2004 @ 09:19 am

WTF!  When did autumn get here? It's cold outside (I'm wearing sweat pants and a sweater for the first time in months!) and I just went outside, and some of the oak trees have already turned orange and brown!  Did this all happen over night, or what? IT's only August!!

Anyway...it's kind of put me in a really happy mood! As much as I love hot summer days, I'm already looking forward to rain storms, warm fires and hot soups, sumptuos sweaters & scarves, hot chocolate and fresh baked cookies, and believe it or not, I'm already looking forward to thanksgiving dinner. LOL! I am way too obsessed with food, I think. :P  Anyway, I'm looking forward to all that stuff, but I'm not quite ready to give up summer just yet...

'dem DEMS! Jul. 30th, 2004 @ 11:49 pm
So...I'm riding high on a wave of democratic unity! It's the end of the Democratic convention, and I feel really hopeful about the future after KErry's speech last night. I had low expectations because I normally find him so boring and long-winded, but he really delivered last night - I was very impressed! Yay!!! I bet BushCo is absolutely terrified. That is, unless they have the elections already rigged. :-/

What else is new... There is some crazy shit going on at my work right now. There's been an underground organization of people trying to start a Union. I was undecided and didn't go to any of the meetings. Then someone leaked info to a superior, and the company totally FREAKED out. Secret meetings left and right, trying to get people to name names, etc. They fired the guy who was initiating the union (even though that's totally illegal), and the next day they put Andy on one-week notice. They told him if he doesn't "improve" his performance in one week, he is fired. They are trying to cover their butt because firing the two people in charge of the union would be just TOO obvious. But anyway. It's total bullshit, and it sucks that the big guy always wins.

Political Funnies!! Jul. 24th, 2004 @ 09:51 pm

TOO FUNNY!!!!!!!!! Click on the link right away! :-D


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um yeah maybe...if blood and pain didn't TERRIFY me!!!! :-(
» aww hell naw!

Is it possible to be repulsed by someone simply because of what they are wearing? I think so, because everytime John wears his muscle shirt it bugs me so much that I end up lashing out at stupid things. Like right now I am so pissed, because I secretly bought tickets to go see Bill Maher, and I've been so excited and couldn't keep it a secret, and finally told John, and his reaction was just like "Oh. Cool." Like no fucking big deal.  I was like, "Isn't that exciting!!" and he doesn't even look up at me, just says "yup" and walks away. WTF!!!!!!!! He was more excited about stupid ice cream than this. I don't even feel like going with him now!!! What's his problem? He can stay home and watch Friends for all I care. Sheesh. Am I overreacting?? MAYBE! I don't know. I've been edgy all day, and the muscle shirt was the last straw. Grrr. :-(

Anywayssss, I haven't updated this thing is so long. Not much has changed, nothing new or exciting has happened in my life. Still working. I'm reading this huge book right now called "The Corrections" by Johnathan Franz. It's pretty crazy, about this dysfunctional family. Hmm. I can relate, although I'm sure most people can relate!! 

I'm also super jealous/happy for Lisa because she got to visit the east coast!! I've always had these rosy-colored dreams about the east coast, and for some reason I think I would really like it. I've always especially been drawn to Boston for some reason (LOVE the accent!), and now that the Democratic convention is happening there next week, I would give a limb to be there!!!  Am I the biggest dork on the planet, to be excited by a political convention?  Probably!!! :-P  And I'm still waiting to see the rest of the pics, Lis!!!!

» The temperature at which freedom burns...
I saw Fahrenheit 9-11 last night!!! It was excellent -- tragic, horrifying, and yet it had to be shown and Michael Moore did a brilliant job. It was a sold out crowd, and was glad I ordered my ticket online earlier that day because a couple hours later I looked online and it had already sold out. I am probably going to go again with John and my mom. But I really recommend it to all!!!!!! Ugghh I feel totally renewed in my disgust and anger towards the whole BUSH crowd. THEY NEED TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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morally deficient
Threat rating: Medium. Your total lack of decent
family values makes you dangerous, but we can
count on some right wing nutter blowing you up
if you become too high profile.

What threat to the Bush administration are you?
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» NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRR!!!! How many times have I wriiten this? I'm all liquored up with no place to go. It's 10:28, John already fell asleep, and I'm frikken BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This sucks so hard. I wish I was at a party or something. I really want to cry. I just want to have fun, and I'm wide awake, all alone, with not frikken place to go. I'm way too drunk to drive anywhere, and I wouldn't know where to go anyway. MADDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish I lived downtown Chico so I could just like walk over to LaSalles or something and boogie the night away. That's what people my age do, is go HAVE FUN. I'm too young to waste my life away sitting at home every Friday/Saturday night.


OOH what's also pissing me off is that apparently NO local theaters are playing Michael Moore's Fahrenheit 9/11 I wanted to go see it on opening day (June 25), but noooooooooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO looks like that won't be happening either,. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
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